xxsweetchrissy

Today…I start fresh two friends and I are starting weight watchers. SO excited! I can’t even tell you. It’s a new beginning for me. I’m even startig to write out to-do lists and getting my room organized. I can’t live like this anymore. I’m 21! (almost 22) and I need to get my life in order. Weight, school, etc. It feels nice to be back!

hello all, happy new year i hope this year brings everyone a great deal of happiness.

i am still maintaing my weight at 157. I was upset at first, but then i figured, why be upset when i have not gained anything. Keeping the weight off is just as important. this year I am going to do my best to start eating and drinking better. not as much bread and definitely not as much soda. It’s important for me to get this weight off when I still can, you know?

well thanks for reading! see you all soon, happy new year, and happy weight loss haha!

-chrissy

Looks like i am down to 157 from 160. 3 pounds is great! and my boyfriend is coming up in a week so I think he will be proud of me. The other day he told me he got down from 350 to where he is now, which is 180? i think. He told me I can totally do it. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He is SO supportive in everything I do. My good friend Lou and I went to applebees the other day and he said “did you loose weight? you look skinnier” and you know what I feel like while they scale is not necessarily showing it, I feel like my bloating has gone down in my face ( i have been drinking  A LOT less soda). Plus I got some awesome news that all my grades have been phenomenal at school so far. The only thing I have to do is write a paper for my abnormal psych class, but he is giving us until the 15th of january, so I am attempting to pace myself.

Here’s to good news and keeping positive. I know I can get down to 135 pounds again, I just have to believe in myself.

anyone else ever notice that when you gain a bunch of weight you don’t really want to go out? That’s been my issue lately, i’m tired of the “Chrissy gained weight” looks that I keep getting. So I guess right now is when I decide…do I want to lose my battle with my weight at 21 years old? Or do I want to take back my life and be the happy outgoing person I know I can be. I have never had anxiety before..I could go anywhere do anything…now I have this weird separation thing from my house where I’m like…if i leave my house then I’m going to get sick. I can’t even go down to visit my BF in PA because I’m freaking out about getting sick. There’s not even a reason for it, which is why I believe it’s merely some sort of chemical imbalance. I never had a traumatic incident in which I got sick when I was away and no one was there to help. So it’s just like…look you need to start a diet..lose about 5-10 pounds so you feel like you can go to the gym without all the stares and then do it. I can get down to 135 lbs. I know I can. That’s my goal weight and I wanna stay there.

Here’s to trying lol

christina

So i was talking to my ex boyfriend of 3 years last night, he tells me that i basically made up all these things that he did to me during our relationship, that I am the one who actually did all the bad stuff, that he can “forgive me but never forget.” WOW. Let me tell you something, for three years i drove this SOB around, spent all my money on food and movies and dates, let him sleep over my house for months just to be able to see him when he’d ignore me all day. What a slap in the face to me and to my parents! Now just because I removed myself from an unhealthy relationship that gave me so much stress i gained 20 pounds, I am now the one who did “everything” in our relationship. Are you kidding me? He and I are both in new relationships, when I saw on his facebook that he was in a new relationship I wished them well in a text message. I ask how she is and he says SHE’S AMAZING!! he asks back “how is your family and rocco”  “rocco?”   “um, rich, rob…your bf?”  “it’s ricky.” he is so rude. He got to treat me like garbage and now his family and GF have convinced him that I am “crazy” and that i did everything. You know what, I DIDN’T! I am going to take off these 20 pounds by New Years Eve, see you at our mutual friend’s party and let you have a slap in the face.

Your little trick to make me feel lower than dirt isn’t working sweetheart. Thank you for the confidence and motivation. And BTW Ricky is someone who you will NEVER be.

-Chrissy

LET’S DO THIS ALL!! who is with me!

I lost 5 pounds this week! A whole 5 pounds and I feel FANTASTIC!!! When I saw the number on the scale I almost jumped up and down and tackled my parents. They were so excited for me, too. I’ve been cooped up inside and feeling down lately,  but my parents and I went outside in the fresh air then saw a movie and I felt great. I want to hit the gym and kick my booty. I can do this and I will!

<3

Sorry I have been a flake, I have some personal business to take care of.

I have some news, I never went away to school, it did not work out, and now I am the highest weight I have ever been in my life. I stepped on the scale now and I am 160 pounds. Never in my life did I ever think I would let myself get this out of control. I am so unhappy with myself right now. I keep saying that, but I cannot believe how much weight I have let myself gain. I need to get going again, wish me luck this is going to be a long, hard battle for me.

I just tried to take a picture of myself for a “current” picture. And I can’t, I am so unhappy with how I look. I couldn’t even smile.

You know what I realized? I have no me time. I’m going away to school in late January and school ends in about two weeks. That gives me about a month and a half before I go away to school. Ugh, and now somebody at one of my jobs quit so I have to pick up her shift. So that means I work Monday Wednesday Thursday Friday and Sunday now. That’s supposed to be my vacation time. I don’t think you can blame me for gaining weight. I go to school full-time and work 3 jobs when the hell do I have time for myself to work out or eat right? Ugh I seriously hate my life, I wish I wasn’t me. I wish I could fall asleep and wake up the next day and be the old me. And I wish I didn’t have to do things for other people all the time. Even if I go to the gym tomorrow or eat right tomorrow. Who cares? I’m going to be 150 lbs regardless. What’s the use in trying, it’s going to take me months and I have to go to the doctor in a month to get weighed and u know what. i’ll still be the same weight I am today. I’m willing to bet u 100$ I will.

I feel like giving up hope.

Well hello my friends!

I’m  not sure how much I weigh. I’ve been between 151-154. And for some reason i’m still not motivated to go to the gym. But i’m not giving up on myself. I figure it’ll take a day of epiphany for me, I thought I had had it but I can’t wait for that day where I get up and want to go to the gym instead of dragging myself, and it’ll come a lot easier.

I think one of my major problems is that i hang out with friends really late. Last night i had so much sprite, slim jims and brownies it would’ve made ur head spin. Gross- this morning i woke up feeling like i had a hangover. guess it’s a sugar hangover huh? why do i let myself feel this way. I should be feeling great every morning. I actually WANT to go to the gym today and I can’t. working 9-5 and my gym closes at 5 or 6. If it is 6 i’m going to fit in a quick work out! go me! but we’ll see.

we can do this let’s stay positive!

hello everyone, i’ve missed you all.

i had to take some time off.

Last year at this time I was in the 140s. I wasn’t happy with myself and I started going to the gym. Soon I was wearing size small and working out 4-5 times a week. Eating salads and lots of protein! I got down to 135 and started to see muscle pile on and fat disappear. =)!!!! I could wear whatever I wanted and I felt healthy.

Want to know where I am? Between 152-154 lbs. I eat junkfood almost every single day, i wear large or extra large and I hate myself. I hate the way I look and how i feel. I work out ZERO times a week. once every two weeks I work out now. I went to the doctor and she told me I have to lose weight because my blood pressure is up. I’m 20 years old and I have to worry about my blood pressure…it’s not right. 90% of the time I dont feel well. My tiny little body should be 130 lbs at the most is what my doctor said. I can’t believe it…how did I let this happen to me?

And why knowing how unhealthy I am….and btw i HAVE to lose weight because I have to go back in a month….will I not work out. I have a membership costing me 60 dollars a month…a working student and I’m letting myself play videogames and watch TV on my couch instead of working out. I’m totally embarassed. I saw these pictures of myself, I don’t even recognize who I am anymore. I thought I was hiding my weight so well, but i KNOW that other ppl have noticed. I went to go visit my friends at the college I attended part of freshman year right? to see their face when I walked in the door, it was heartbreaking. They are not mean ppl, not in the least. But last time they saw me I was working out so much and had lost a bunch of weight. Now i let it pile back on. I need so much strength and support.

let’s be there for each other!!! Strength is in numbers. I missed you all! glad to be back.

WE CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!